So….it’s now the weekend


     The ‘no drink in the house’ project went as well as could be expected. We both did four days. I did go out on Wednesday for a couple, when S**** came up for his drama rehearsal and had a whiskey when we got back, but nothing in the the house until Friday. Did I feel any better for it ?????? To be honest, I did not feel any different really. I missed it, but it wasn’t a problem. I was fully expecting to see a bit of weight loss …. no chance. In fact I may have put on a pound or two during the week. Don’t know what we will do next week. R*** is on respite, and Mrs H likes to go socialise when he’s away. So it could be that we go out on Tuesday (quiz nite) and Wednesday (drama night) too.

     My appraisal went okay. No problems. It’s not like real appraisals, whereby your performance is linked to your pay increase. It’s basically a ‘this is what you’re going to do this year’ type of meeting. It’s proper name is ‘Personal Development Review’, so you see what mean. It’s supposed to identify training needs and the like. It has yet to do so.

     The issues I am having with the colleague at work continue. One minute the person is stabbing me in the back, then the next, they are chatting to me as if nothing has happened. I don’t hold grudges, but I don’t forget !!! And it would appear, that the whole office is in my corner (which makes a change.) To be continued……

Day two


     All still on track with the ‘no drink in the house’ plan. Although it has been a bit of a stressful day, I got through without an issue. However, a few problems at work, which I cannot go into except to say, that someone in the office is treading on very thin ice !!!!!

     Guess who woke up at about 2:45 this morning. I still think, that he may be having bad dreams. He was very agitated, when I went into his room. I gave him his medication, and he settled down after about an hour, so that was not too bad. He currently has an obsession with The Power Rangers. He is watching a VHS tape over and over, and watching the old series on YouTube. He has now decided that he wants a blue Power Rangers helmet !!!! They are available on eBay for around £170.00 !!!!! I think his luck may be out there.

     Appraisal tomorrow. Will let you know how it goes, but I don’t think I’m going to have too many problems there.

All done …. well for six months anyway


The appraisal went much as expected. A 10 minute trip down memory lane into what my objectives were (memo: ‘I already knew’), why they were picked (memo: see previous memo) and why they were not fully met (memo: ‘we knew they wouldn’t be’). Then we moved into patronising mode, where we discussed my strengths and weaknesses . This meaningless exchange lasted a good 25 minutes. And the outcome ……… nothing has changed since last time, but ‘I’m working on my weaknesses’. I have been doing so for the past 40 years or so. Then came my objectives (or jobs that I have to do because my line-manager can’t). These were basically to continue the ones before, plus one more. Now why on earth it took another 20 minutes to complete that part, I have no idea. That is it until the six monthly review, when we will go through the same thing again.

The situation with Mrs H and the eldest, is beginning to improve. She seemed a little happier this evening. They had all been to her sisters for my Mum-in-laws birthday, and S**** had come along too. He was not well yesterday.  Apparently, he had had a pizza on Tuesday night, and was ill after it. Now I remember being his age, and experiencing the very same type of illness on a regular basis. You go out, have 16 pints of beer, followed by a curry/kebab, and it is the food that always makes you ill !!!! I don’t think she slept too well last night worrying about him. I honestly believe she thought he had swine flu’.

Youngest has just had an ‘episode’. He has been great all day, then it comes to go to bed and he kicks off. All the Autism experts say there is a trigger, but quite often it is nothing that can be indentified. The droning starts, then the violence kicks in, and it is often 20 minutes before settles down. Tonight it seems to be taking a lot longer. The violence seems to increase when you try to stop it. It is as if he needs to hurt you, and his anger will not subside until he has. But the reason for the anger is not obvious. One of the annoying things is though, that the experts always look to you as if you are the cause. We spoke to one of the ‘experts’ some time ago, someone from the Disability Team, and when Mrs H said that often the anger is directed at me, the ‘expert’ turned to me and asked me ‘why did I think he directed it at me?’ Or in other words … it must be my fault.

Last day tomorrow. Hopefully we will have a reasonable week. I hope the weather picks up again. It will be quite a miserable week if we get the rain we had last time I was off. R*** has been quite amenable this week. Let’s hope it continues (apart from the bad parts of course).

Thought I had bagged a bargain tonight. I need to but some more RAM for my PC. It has 1.5gb, but I want to get it up to the maximum 2gb (it’s a 4 year old PC.) I bought the last lot from Play.com for about £16.00. When it worked, I though I would get 1gb, but the price had rocketed to £34.00. However, when I checked the site today, there was an offer, for the same RAM as before, at £17.00. Too good to be true ??? Well yes and no. They were out of stock, and there was no indication when the new stock would come in. So I left it, but I will keep checking, as that extra 1/2gb will make a lot of difference.

That’s it. Seem to have gone on a little tonight, but it has been an interesting (and I use the word lightly) day.

Two more days to go…….


That’s right. Only two more days, then I get a week annual leave. To be honest, I think I need it. It has been a long July, and August looks like it could be the same.

The eldest lad phoned at lunchtime, to say he was not feeling so good. Sounds like he has had a dodgy pizza on top of a few (or not so few) pints of Tetley’s. He’s spent the day in bed. Of course Mrs H is thinking swine flu !!!! But then again, so many people think they have got/had swine flu, or at least, some version of it !!! Strange thing happened tonight though. Mrs H had been trying to ring him, and was very concerned (as usual) that he was not answering his phone. I signed into MSN on my mobile, and noticed the he was signed in also. So I messaged him, but got no reply. Then he rang to say how he was. Later, I had to go upstairs, and noticed that his room door was open, and that his PC was running. I turned on the monitor, and it was running an AVG scan. Could not understand why it was running, or why the PC was on. I checked some of the PC settings, to see if it was set to start-up when AVG scan was due, and there was nothing I could see. We are now thinking, that the youngest lad had, for some reason, switched the PC on. Unfortunately, his condition prevents him from saying whether he did or not !!!! Strange. I will ask S**** when I see him if it has done that before.

No J**** on MSN again. Not chatted since the 1st of August. I hope I’ve not upset her or scared her off at all. She is a nice person to chat to. Last thing I said to her, was that I hoped to talk more about her. Maybe that’s it. Maybe I sounded too heavy !! Who knows. Just got a message. Been busy, that’s all. I had a quick chat with M**** on facebook earlier. Been a long time since I chatted to her. She’s been through the mill over the past few months. Doesn’t pull any punches at all. She was one of the first people I chatted to on the ‘Lycos Chat’ that was. Seems to be a good laugh. Always been straight with me. Here’s a thought …… why are most of my online friends women ????

Bloody appraisal tomorrow (as I may have said a few times). It will be another period of my life I’ll never get back. It’s not as if it really means anything. No promotion, pay increase or anything like that, just an excuse to give me my ‘objectives’ for the year. Oh and an excuse for Spike to be both patronising and condescending at the same time. How does he do that ?? There must be an art to it.I’d just love to be fly on the wall, when he does G***s appraisal. She takes even more serious than he does. Could be fun.

Done for now.

Is it only Tuesday ……


This week seems to be dragging already, and it’s only Tuesday. It feels like it should Thursday. Had a quick look at the appraisal preparation form today, to try and get ready for the meeting. It all looks totally inappropriate for the work I do. So a fun (sic) will be had by all.

Oh did I say things were getting easier. Well they are not. Mrs H spent the afternoon trying to ring S****, only to find out, when she did get through (at around 4pm) that he had just got up. She was not best pleased. If this goes on much longer, I am just going to have to be quite blunt, and tell her to leave him alone !!!! It’s harsh, but he is never going to be able to break free at this rate. Mind you, if it is bad now, it is going to get a lot worse, when the other one has to go.

And so to the on going saga of the pedometer. I sent an email to the coordinator, V**** this morning. After wearing the damn thing from around 6:30 until 9:00, I had done a grand total of 7 steps. Within minutes, V**** sent a group email to explain, that there were serious problems with the kit. It would appear, that the supplier had sent us the ‘Christmas Cracker’ version,when we had paid for the deluxe version. The supplier claimed it was an innocent mistake, but V**** did not seem convinced. So the general consensus was, that we should start again with the initiative, next month, when the correct pedometers arrive.

I had a look at the upgrade for my mobile phone this afternoon. My contract is up toward the end of September, so I’m looking to Nokia E71 upgrade the phone to a ‘smart-phone’, the Nokia E71, and also change the the plan. I’m currently on a plan that gives me 300 minutes or texts, plus 300 minutes on ‘3 to 3’. A kind of ‘mix and match’. The plan I’m looking at will give be 200 minutes, unlimited texts, unlimited 3 to 3 and unlimited internet. The word ‘unlimited’ is of course incorrect as Three impose a fair usage policy. But It should give me a lot more freedom. I could change now, but I could not get the benefits of the plan, until my next bill is due, and as it would only be a month to the end of the current contract, I may as well wait.

Going back to work, I managed to get a photo of G*** dozing whilst at work. I am tempted to post it here, but she does not know about it, so it would not be fair. I said a week or two ago, that she was asleep, only to be told “I’m not asleep, just meditating”. I muttered something about snoring and meditation not going together, but regretted it quite quickly .. ha ha.

I think that will do for now.

The end of the first day ….


Well there was no phone call from him today. I did not expect him to ring, but Mrs H thought he might. It has been a long day. I was that concerned about Mrs H sleeping, that I did not get much sleep myself. She was awake around about half past four, and from about that time I just dozed with one eye open. We were both up at twenty past seven !!! I have a feeling, tonight may be the same.

It’s just five days work, then I am off for a whole week. I may have to go in on the Tuesday morning, but it will only be for an hour or and hour and fifteen minutes. I’m not too happy about leaving P*** to do both the download and the cash transfer. He would probably be okay with the download, but he just would not do the cash, which means D*** would have two lots to do on the Wednesday, and that can be a bit of a pain.

I have my appraisal or ‘Personal Development Review’ or PDR as it is called. I have always been a fan of appraisals, until S**** came to work with us. He takes everything just too serious, including the recording of the meeting. It will take at least an hour. All that will happen is that I will get my ‘objectives’ for the year, and a discussion about why last years did not get completed. There will be no training required (where does the ‘Development’ part come in ??), and I will be told what an asset I am, and how the section could not run without me. There is no financial incentive, no chance of promotion. No benefit what so ever. Total waste of time.

On a different track, my legs ache. It must have been all that walking up and down the stairs at S****’s flat. I thought I was going down with flu this morning. Apart from that achy legs, my head spinning. It was only when I realised, that I had drunk most of the red wine, that I understood the problem.

No one to chat to tonight. They must all be having an early one. Therefore, so will I. Tomorrow will be quite a busy day, especially if I decide to do my PDR prep.

Knackered……


I did a walk tonight as promised. It must have been 5-6 miles as it took  1 1/2 St Mary's Church - Boston Spahours all told. I set a reasonable pace, and I think I kept it up. I did the same walk as last week, but the opposite way round. Plus I added, what must have been at least a mile further into Boston Spa . Taking the route I did, meant that I did not have to View walk uphill on Windmill Road. I have to say though, by the time I was walking by Boston Spa school, I was starting to flag a little.

I don’t think I’ll get a walk of a ride tomorrow. I have an idea, that S**** wants me to take him into Leeds. He is going to see ‘Blood Brothers’ with his ex and her family !!! Very confusing. I may have to rush home for about 5pm. I need to go to Asda though. They were selling Jim Beam, at £10.00 a bottle !!!!! I’m sorely tempted to get 2 bottles at that price.

I got the date for my PDR (Personal Development Review – Appraisal). It is after my holiday, which was a surprise. I had a quick look at the documentation, and it looks like this might be a proper appraisal, and not just the usual  ‘chat’ we have been though for the past 8 years. Unfortunately, I’m up first, which means that he’ll be ‘very fresh’.

That’s all for now.

Here comes another … just like the other


I think it was a joint decision. Not to go to the pub. Youngest was no right from the start, and the eldest looked at me as if I was bereft of all intelligence. I did not ask again !!!! I do think I was pushing it anyway.

Quite a few jobs to do today. Mrs H at work and it decided to wash the bedding. Now this new bedding we have has a top sheet as well as a duvet and bottom sheet. This means, that there is even less space to dry inside should it rain ……… which of course it did !! A bit of gardening in between showers, and four attempts at pumping up the bike tyres. So I’m all set for a bike ride tomorrow evening, before dinner (note to ‘one-on-high’ … no rain please.)

I hopefully will get my pedometer this week. It will be interesting to see how many steps I do make in a day. I don’t get it though. One is supposed to do at least 1000 steps in a day, but the nurse insisted that I need to do a 20 minute “brisk” walk to get any benefit. Are both right ? If I do 20 minutes brisk walking does that mean I don’t need to do 1000 or vice versa ?

Eldest stayed down after dinner tonight. That has not happened for a long time. We watched Peter Pan on ITV2. It was okay I suppose, but it had nothing going for it except the effects.

I think I’ll be getting my appraisal next week. It will be the usual thing …… part pat on the back/part where I’m going wrong. There will be no training requirement (again), just a carry on as usual.